What the...?

So this morning I looked at my phone and scanned through Facebook, because you know, I'm a loser and the first thing I look at on my phone is Facebook. Don't you judge me. You know you do it too.  And someone had posted this video. You know the ones I'm talking about. Someone's good natured effort to rebuff the negative feelings many, if not all women feel about themselves. It's got that soft piano music and some guy whose forehead is way too big, saying nice things that women like to hear. (Honestly to me he looks like a toad, but I guess if a toad were to flatter me I wouldn't only be surprised and possibly scared, I would start to question what a toads spectrum of beauty is.) You know those uplifting things, like "You are beautiful. You are smart. You are funny." Stuff like that. And while it is a very nice message, I personally have to scoff at it. I just think they're cheesy. So I posted a snarky status update and my friends who know me and know my humor, laughed at it and carried on the joke. And an older lady that I knew has to get on and comment " I guess they could say you're ugly and stupid. Would that be better? LOL" Well, actually to me, it might. At least it wouldn't give me any false presumptions that some toad thinks I'm attractive, smart, or funny. At least I wouldn't be looking for some stranger to tell me in a umbrella video to all the other self depressive women out there how great I am. What I would really like is my clothes to fit properly. That would make me feel great. Or my husband to kiss me longer than a nanosecond. But you know what? It's not going to happen by watching some video on Facebook. it made me really think about how much people have invested in the way others view themselves. And yes, there are times that I have relied on the acceptance of others and it kinda makes me ashamed of myself. I know as well as the next person that it's hard to love who are and everything about yourself. But I find myself watching these feel good self help videos and I think to myself, I don't need this. I have a lot going for me. I have my health, I have my family who loves me, I've got my skills that I've been developing, I've got three beautiful children that although they drive me crazy, I love them to the end of anything. I've got my faith in the church, I have my friends, I have my home, I have food to eat and fresh water to drink. You know what? My life is pretty damn good. My hair may not always do what I want it to, my clothes may not always fit the way I want, I may not be in as good shape as I want to be, but I have control over that and I can change that if I want to. I don't need complete strangers to tell me how beautiful, smart and funny I am. I already know that. I want to know that when I do have a bad day I can pass the kids to my husband and go take a long shower, read a book, eat a whole bag of chips, whatever. I know at the end of the day I have my family, my kids, my husband, my home and my life. Bad days come and go. But as long as I can breathe, I can change that. I can be better, for them and for me. So go ahead bad days, come at me. I just bought cookies yesterday that are just DYING to be eaten. :)

5 years...

Another year has come and gone since Tim and I were married in the Bountiful Utah temple on a kinda rainy grey day much like today. It was the best yes of my life. And now for some memories and reasons why I said yes.

 We have fun together

 He's willing to stay up with the kids even though it really wears on him

 He likes to be involved with crafty things for the kids.

 He enjoys spending time with his kids when he can

 He is a worthy priesthood holder, and uses it to bless our home and our children.

 He takes pride in our home and works hard to keep it looking well maintained.

And because he asked me, and I would do pretty much anything for him. Thank you Tim for giving me the privilege of being your wife for the last five years and for promising to put up with for eternity. You're a brave man. I love you. Eternally Yours!

Bridget Turns 2!

Bridget , my baby turned two on the 6th of this month and it snuck up on us as her birthday did last year. All I could think that day was, where did that year go? We bought our house, moved in, got Pippin, and started our home projects... so I guess that's where the time went. Birthdays came and went and then it was Bridget turning two. It's crazy to believe she's two already to me because she's still my baby girl. The little miniature I brought home and was scared to break because she was a whole two pounds smaller than Riley. Two pounds make a big difference when you only have 7-9 of them to throw around. Let's take a look at how much she's grown shall we....?

Newborn stage. All small and wrinkly.

 First Easter- losing some of the baby chub

Bridget's first birthday

First smiling family picture- except Riley of course.

 I love this picture^

Still doesn't have the teeth

 Easter

 Wants to be just as big as Riley

On vacation

and she's always good for a smile. Bridget has taught me so many things, like how many times a kid can get into trouble in one day. I thought Riley was a chore, she's nothing compared to Bridget! And she's sooooo fast!!! I can blink and she's gone. I sure to love her though, and the thought of her growing up makes me sad.  
I guess that's why we take pictures. Happy Birthday Bridget!

Summer part 2

As promised I have LOTS And LOTS more pictures of our trip to Cali and the rest of our summer. 

 She was getting tired on the Heimlich's Chew chew train

 Julies former co worker and friend Jazz was also there with his wife and kids and they were nice enough to take this picture for us. see what I mean about only a few good pictures? 

 The next day we went to Doheny Beach. It was a lot of fun, despite the steep incline and HUGE waves that threatened to drown the little kids, even the big kids.

 Riley was not to fond of the water so she stuck to the sand

 Bridget wasn't allowed to go much farther than the blanket because I'm paranoid.

I think they liked the beach anyway.

The boys tried to build a sand turtle but the waves got bigger and bigger and kept washing it's fins away. 

 We got a cool experience while at Disneyland our fourth day. The space shuttle Endeavor was making it's way to a museum and it flew right over Disneyland. Because we didn't know what time it was flying over the park exactly we went into the park and Ben took our camera and got these pictures from the roof of the parking garage.

We took the kids to Peter Pan and just as we were exiting the ride the shuttle flew right over and I was able to get this video:

Cool right? It was perfect timing. 

 Bridget and Riley got to ride the Dumbo ride with Daddy and Grandpa because it was too hot for me to stand in line with them.

 Then we went to Frontierland and went to the little petting zoo. Riley was really stoked about petting a goat. she wouldn't stop talking about it all day.

 I think this one was her favorite.

 Ben would talk to the goats and Riley liked that. We don't have pictures of Bridget because she was getting her dirty diaper changed.

 See we did get pictures of Trevon:) 

 In Toon Town

 The quintessential Disneyland picture lifting the toon weights. 

 And she got photo bombed by Grandpa.

 Then to Riley's great joy, we got her face painted.Last time Riley got her face painted she cried the whole time and didn't want the person painting her face to get too close to her. So obviously we were a little tentative about spending 18.00$ on something she may or may not even allow to be finished.

 Put to our great surprise, Riley was good and cooperative the whole time.  

 I thought she might have even fell asleep

 And now GLITTER!

 All Done!!!

 She loved getting her face painted. And I love that she loved it.

On the teacups with Dad. Mom, Grandma and Trevon were standing in line for a ride that shut down as soon as they got to the front of the line.

 They look like they had a good time huh? 

I amd going to take another break from blogging for a little bit and I still have two more days of our vacation and the rest of our summer and Halloween. Yeah I'm never going to be completely caught up. I think it's time that I just come to terms with that.:)